In it's core, this is my journal of me trying to improve my skills in Eve Online. If you don't know what Eve Online is, then I must ask you the same question I asked you in here , why the fuck are you here wasting your time?
I mean, there is some rando ass chinese fossil that thinks that being of no use is actually a good thing, but that can't possibly apply here. Being useless sucks in an environment like this where to be actually enjoying means to be better than people. Otherwise you get ganked, you go out and get exploded, you don't get fun in this hypercompetitive gameworld. Where co-op is really cruicial it is also equally as important that everyone in the group is up to snuff, otherwise the group's getting sandbagged by one or two idiots.
You can interpret this as Ersylium's irrational fear of being the sandbag, and that'd probably be a 100% accurate interpretation, just one I won't admit to being the truth. Oh well. Getting good is a good thing anyways, everyone likes someone who knows what they're doing... right?